[Time For Change!]
"Things do not change; we change."
- Henry David Thoreau.
- Henry David Thoreau.
Right now I'm in a bit of drama and I despise drama, however drama always tends to find me. I haven't told anyone in the city, not even my friends, about this drama situation so I feel a bit nervous and alone. I have a tendency to do that... I usually keep things locked up inside of me until I'm going to explode, usually because of trust issues.
The only individuals I've told my drama dilemma to are Bruno {from Paris, France} and Bali {from Manchester, UK}. I've only trusted them because they are fabulous individuals who semi-understand me and I can relate to. I always feel open with both of them, as I can say almost anything without worry.
As I realize it all the more, there is nothing for me here in Houston and I really want to get out of here! I have to start focusing more on my fashion studies, find a part-time job, get a new internship, etc. I know what I must do and I have to strive to work hard; quit being a total sloth!
I think I want to intern at Lawndale Art Center. But, I know it's going to be hardcore. I need to get myself ready for it!
I need change!
I need to stop asking for change and start being the change.
I'm thinking about not hanging out with my friends in Houston that much. Mostly I just want to start doing more things I love rather than sacrificing myself for their happiness! Plus, I don't like their realm/vibe. I want new friends and I want to stop complaining all the time about it! I want to be around individuals that bring out the happy in me and individuals that I can be free around. Of course I first have to work on being free and happy, from the inside.
The struggle continues...
